钻牛角尖

though the title is in chinese

i still wanna blog in english! :P

钻牛角尖

is a term saying that a person who

tends to think negatively about anything,

though the fact is NOT what he/she think to be.

we all know this is not good to us at all,

but

ironically,

however, i do nothing better than this!

yes, doing the stuff which i just described above!

yes yes i know,

doing this is not at all beneficial nor making myself feel good.

but i just seriously can't help it.

did i say that i have tried before?

i kept telling myself to think positively,

tried to stop thinking negatively,

forced myself not to think negatively

but

all these effort was not fruitful.

sigh....

let me share an incident that happened today,

well i was told to go to oral patho department

to sign the attendance list

so i supposed to go to sign it after the theory paper in the morning

when i walked out of the exam hall

i totally forgot it

after i recalled about it, i went and ask my friends,

and just found out that they all already signed it after the theory paper.

at the very moment i felt so frustrated (rather by myself)

blaming myself how could i not remember to sign it.

at the same time putting (little) blame on them too.

i felt bad too (and somewhat guilty)

i didn't want to blame anyone else.

but

in a fraction of minute i just couldn't help it.

omg i'm such a bad bad person LOL!

so this is it, what i wanna share today!

so i would like to conclude the blog post

with a statement that

i am someone who doesn't think positively always!

i need to change

and maybe you can help me!

anyone who is interested to help me change to a better person

is most welcomed! :D

-Happy Wesak Day-

have a nice day!