第60篇部落格

现在不想和人说话，

所以只和部落格说话。

夜里，

到底是不是比较容易“依默”？

可能生理期吧？

整个人情绪很无常。

特别敏感，

一不小心，便会受伤。

苦苦等着一通电话，

电话终于响起；

但是却越说越不愉快，

越聊越无言，

多次哽咽，眼泪在眼眶打滚；

不想再说下去。

哽咽的时候，本来就很难说话；

勉强着说话还要隐藏自己的情绪不让对方听得出，

很讨厌在这种情况说话，很难听而且比痛快地哭更难受。

一心渴望可以得到多点关怀

了解我的心情我的需求

但是却听见了这样的回覆

“你要我更了解你的苦衷，那谁来了解我的无奈？”

没关系

我的部落格最了解我了。

有它就够了。

从现在起

我可以自己过好自己的生活。

不依靠任何人

也一样可以很快乐。

-完-

work-out!

after a month of work-out

thought i can make my legs thinner

ironically, however,

they grow bigger!!!

damn!

aahhh! no!!!!

wait, is this an illusion?

or they really have grown big?

how i wish this is just my hallucination or 心理作用:

they were just the same instead of growing bigger,

i might be over-sensitive etc...

but....

what if this is real??

i can feel some difference happening to my leg...

they became stiff

oh please don't tell me i've added the "bulk" of muscle on my legs!!!

i don't want any of that!!

sob sob....

i don't know what to do now....

i just want a pair of thinner legs

and i swear i am working hard towards it!

and this is what i got...how sad! :(

aahh my legs!

hurt my calf muscles today

felt the muscle ache right after gym

pressed the calf to relieve the tense muscles

it hurts!

after sometime, black green discolouration appeared on the skin where i pressed!

i wonder is there hematoma(blood collection) beneath the skin?

sigh...

aiyo...

should stop doing gym until my calf recover...

next time should start with warm up first! >_<

bad dreamzzz...

woke up from a bad dream

feeling really really frustrated

can't get more ANNOYED by that!!!

why the hell on earth

that i have this dream???

because of the pre-exam stress???

the thing which i have been staying away from

the thing that i would wanna see last

all came up in the dream!

DAMN! feel like SHIT when i woke up!!!

bad dreamsss,

please stay away from me!

i've have enough of those!

am certainly not in a good mood now!

quick update

exam is nearing.....

the third year is coming to an end point.

and then another 2 years to complete the course.

haven't been "visiting" my twitter for days,

not active in facebook either.

dont feel like expressing my feelings in facebook nor twitter.

stopped stalking on people as well.

i've lost interest in doing that. :P

i just realised that being alone is not that bad.

living the life the way i want--is really good.

Are You a Hypocrite?

there are so many hypocrites around us

sometimes we are hypocrites also

being it

we do not have choice

since we have to deal with thousands of people

facing this kind of people daily

do make us feel tired and sometimes

even nausea....

sigh...

good luck in dealing with

hypocrites LOL!

CoNfEsSiOn

good morning!

i would like to tell a truth about me.

that

i am a

StAlKeR!!!

..................

............

......

wow i am brave enough

to tell my blog readers this

because i am risking my reputations

LOL...

yup right, a stalker!

not the one that hide in the bushes

and stalk about people

but the one

who check on other's facebook status, pictures etc...

so beware!

here comes the stalker!

roarrrr...

当、当、当当……

发现今年真的有好些娱乐圈的艺人

结婚了。

不说艺人，

本人也有几位同龄朋友披上婚纱，

成为人妻了。

开始时，

觉得哇这么早就结婚啦？

嗯……

其实还好啦，

几岁结婚并不重要。

最关键的是，

能找到那个最疼爱自己与自己最爱的人，

在众人见证之下，

许下承诺、白头偕老。

我嘛？其实我个人

真的对结婚没什么概念。

真的。

看着同龄的朋友结婚了，

自己也醒觉年龄不轻了。

多少也该

对婚姻这回事

有些概念。

但是，

有一点我非常确定的。

就是，

我还没准备好！！！

呵呵……

不瞒你说，

我对婚姻并没有什么特别佳的想法。

呃……

也许是因为

许多情侣都是撑得起风雨，

却经不起平淡。

我担心自己是这样的人。

担心平淡久了，会找不回当初的激情，

然后就无法走下去了。

还有另一个原因，

我不擅长交际/讨好别人。

于是便担心自己无法扮演好媳妇的角色。

其实不想结婚，

可以有说不尽的理由。

那些怕经不起平淡、

或是担心婆媳关系等理由。

都不是最主要决定要不要结婚的理由。

而是你自己，

想不想跟此人共结连理？

现时的我，

以不是单身。

于是问自己，

尚若有一天被问起了，

我的答案会是？

没有想，也没有不想。

说了等于没说是吧？

答案显示出，

那个让我觉得非他不嫁的人

好像还没有出现。

但是这样说，

会被人认为我对感情不认真，

在玩弄别人感情。

不是的。

只是，

心中的那个位置，

还一直悬空着。

至于未来会是如何？

我无法预测。

就交给老天或月老吧。