quick update

exam is nearing.....

the third year is coming to an end point.

and then another 2 years to complete the course.

haven't been "visiting" my twitter for days,

not active in facebook either.

dont feel like expressing my feelings in facebook nor twitter.

stopped stalking on people as well.

i've lost interest in doing that. :P

i just realised that being alone is not that bad.

living the life the way i want--is really good.

Are You a Hypocrite?

there are so many hypocrites around us

sometimes we are hypocrites also

being it

we do not have choice

since we have to deal with thousands of people

facing this kind of people daily

do make us feel tired and sometimes

even nausea....

sigh...

good luck in dealing with

hypocrites LOL!

CoNfEsSiOn

good morning!

i would like to tell a truth about me.

that

i am a

StAlKeR!!!

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wow i am brave enough

to tell my blog readers this

because i am risking my reputations

LOL...

yup right, a stalker!

not the one that hide in the bushes

and stalk about people

but the one

who check on other's facebook status, pictures etc...

so beware!

here comes the stalker!

roarrrr...

当、当、当当……

发现今年真的有好些娱乐圈的艺人

结婚了。

不说艺人，

本人也有几位同龄朋友披上婚纱，

成为人妻了。

开始时，

觉得哇这么早就结婚啦？

嗯……

其实还好啦，

几岁结婚并不重要。

最关键的是，

能找到那个最疼爱自己与自己最爱的人，

在众人见证之下，

许下承诺、白头偕老。

我嘛？其实我个人

真的对结婚没什么概念。

真的。

看着同龄的朋友结婚了，

自己也醒觉年龄不轻了。

多少也该

对婚姻这回事

有些概念。

但是，

有一点我非常确定的。

就是，

我还没准备好！！！

呵呵……

不瞒你说，

我对婚姻并没有什么特别佳的想法。

呃……

也许是因为

许多情侣都是撑得起风雨，

却经不起平淡。

我担心自己是这样的人。

担心平淡久了，会找不回当初的激情，

然后就无法走下去了。

还有另一个原因，

我不擅长交际/讨好别人。

于是便担心自己无法扮演好媳妇的角色。

其实不想结婚，

可以有说不尽的理由。

那些怕经不起平淡、

或是担心婆媳关系等理由。

都不是最主要决定要不要结婚的理由。

而是你自己，

想不想跟此人共结连理？

现时的我，

以不是单身。

于是问自己，

尚若有一天被问起了，

我的答案会是？

没有想，也没有不想。

说了等于没说是吧？

答案显示出，

那个让我觉得非他不嫁的人

好像还没有出现。

但是这样说，

会被人认为我对感情不认真，

在玩弄别人感情。

不是的。

只是，

心中的那个位置，

还一直悬空着。

至于未来会是如何？

我无法预测。

就交给老天或月老吧。

maybe i should just delete

my twitter account

and go study.

should not get distracted

by something

really unecessary.

out of sight,

out of mind.

zzzZZZzzz......

知道为什么我情愿把自己关在房里不出来吗

就是因为不想对着一些hypocrite的人戴上一副谁也知道是不真实的笑脸。

讲完。晚安。

钻牛角尖

though the title is in chinese

i still wanna blog in english! :P

钻牛角尖

is a term saying that a person who

tends to think negatively about anything,

though the fact is NOT what he/she think to be.

we all know this is not good to us at all,

but

ironically,

however, i do nothing better than this!

yes, doing the stuff which i just described above!

yes yes i know,

doing this is not at all beneficial nor making myself feel good.

but i just seriously can't help it.

did i say that i have tried before?

i kept telling myself to think positively,

tried to stop thinking negatively,

forced myself not to think negatively

but

all these effort was not fruitful.

sigh....

let me share an incident that happened today,

well i was told to go to oral patho department

to sign the attendance list

so i supposed to go to sign it after the theory paper in the morning

when i walked out of the exam hall

i totally forgot it

after i recalled about it, i went and ask my friends,

and just found out that they all already signed it after the theory paper.

at the very moment i felt so frustrated (rather by myself)

blaming myself how could i not remember to sign it.

at the same time putting (little) blame on them too.

i felt bad too (and somewhat guilty)

i didn't want to blame anyone else.

but

in a fraction of minute i just couldn't help it.

omg i'm such a bad bad person LOL!

so this is it, what i wanna share today!

so i would like to conclude the blog post

with a statement that

i am someone who doesn't think positively always!

i need to change

and maybe you can help me!

anyone who is interested to help me change to a better person

is most welcomed! :D

-Happy Wesak Day-

have a nice day!